Jane: endurance, risk and love

Saturday, October 08, 2005

I'm listening to: Cueshe - 24 Hours
I'm currently feeling: Worried

Nothing much happened yesterday.

I got up late (3PM) and immediately took my shower. I was planning to have my clearance signed but hesitant because I might be running out of time, so I decided to do it this morning, that if I would be able to wake up early.

I talked to Djhan about our situation this afternoon. I cried and I couldn't help but self pity for once again I lost a friend. I am being honest with myself, I've been honest to him and I just couldn't blame him nor get angry with him. I too have weaknesses. There are matters we just couldn't settle. He sounded so bitter, he's being sarcastic. He misunderstood all my comments.
"Prejudice is worst than racism", something I heard from the radio or read at the internet.
I never seek out the help of my friends nor scatter what's going on between both of us. I want to keep the problems to myself cause I don't want others to get involved. Matters got worse for he informed his guildmates about it. I couldn't do anything about it. For me, I am doing the right thing. He just misunderstood everything. The story is quiet long and I don't want to narrate it anymore.

Only God knows . . .

I want to surrender everything to him. I know he got plans, I know that he'll help me fix this mess. I know that I may not be clean, and I am a sinner, but he always has plans for me.

Djhan sort of point out something which said that I don't have a lot of friends. Yes, that's true, I don't have many friends in-game, but in real life I got so many. I am not a charming person thus befriending somebody is difficult for me, but I managed to have real friends. Though we may be far away, I know that they still care for me and I hope I would be able to express how much they mean to me. I choose my friends, and I must admit that I always go for those that are "real".

True friends are tested through times...

For Djhan, this may not be the right time, but what comes along comes along. Life is unpredictable. Let God takes care of everything.

12:59 AM endurance, risk and love

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WELLA JANE dual-natured,elusive, complex and contradictory, have the virtue of versatility, on the other the vices of two-facedness and flightiness, very attractive; when feel bad is worse for being the charmer that she is. Lively, and happy, egocentric, imaginative and restless

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