Jane: endurance, risk and love

Thursday, May 26, 2005

Wala akong maisip na title ok?! Don't mind the entry title haha!

Alright, i'll get a little serious now.

Hmm...I am getting old, life is like "______" No colors, no spices, nothing exciting at all. I am like a prisoner in this small computer room where I am staying right now and for two years now. I never go out of the house, I don't go to malls, no movies, no strolling, none at all...all codes, all scripts, all Ragnarok, all music, cigarettes and beer. This is my life,hell yeah!

My everyday routine: Wake up - Breakfast - Computer - Lunch - Computer - Dinner-Computer -Sleep
Exciting isn't it?

My life revolves around Ragnarok where Midgard represents the four corners of my room, my character represents myself, my guild represents my family, our ally represents my friends, our site represents my diary...

A while ago...

Me: Hoy, bingi ka ba, hindi ka sumasagot!

Hiiro: Sorry miss, I just couldn't ignore private messages. I'm entertaining lots of PM's

Me: Hiiro naiinis na talaga ako sau ha! Ba't ka ba English nang English jan...mag-Tagalog ka nga!
Hiiro: This is to prevent people from saying that they are me when they really are not. Sorry you we're in exall mode, so I could not send you a private message.

Me: Ah yeah, nakalimutan ko, naka-exall mode pala ako kanina. I thought you were just ignoring me, so I almost left this guild.

Hiiro: Anyway, we are only humans.

Me: Matanong kita....ano nga pala ang tagalog ng humans?

Hiiro : Hmm... tao. O_o

Me: Eh alam mo pala mag-Tagalog eh!

Hahaha! Ang kulit ko talaga...Hindi ko alam pero nakakatuwa talaga kulitin ang mga sobrang seryosong tao. There are times when I shout at Hiiro and tell him how pangit he is. Sometimes I would shout like "waga ta....kyouki ..." somehing, a verse in Japanese which means "my battle is madness". Yun kasi ung position name nya, and I would really want na mainis sya sakin kasi sobrang "respectful" ung dating nya sakin from day 1 until present. Para akong babasaging kristal kung kausap ko sya, and I just hate it. Hahaha!
So ito na naman ako nangungulit...

(At Juno)

Me: San ka ba, bumaba ka nga dito, tulungan mo kasi akong mamulot ng herbs sa baba, di ko kasi mapatay ung kambing ano!

Hiiro: I'm coming...

(Juno field 4)

Me: Hiiro matanong lang kita...why wont you consider giving Mac an SGH? Matagal na kasi nila pangarap yon... I think sa ginawa nya, he deserves an SGH

Hiiro: I already have 1 reserved SGH for Mac.

Me: (deep inside...) YIPEE!

Ang saya! Afterall, di naman pala kami uuwing luhaan diba?! I won't consider it as a payment for helping out Death in grabbing the championship. It's just that...Mac really deserves an SGH.

YESTERDAY

Oh hell, I was sobbing after Jeps confirmed that he quits. I just can't accept that we'll lose Jeps. He's the guild's treasured wizard. Sya pinakamagaling na wiz na nakita ko.
Jeps told me na masaya na sya after killing 6 UH members last elims. Death knows, na pag hndi sana na disconnected sa game si Mac, sana kami ung champion.
`Nuff said. There are things that shud be left unspoken.

1:48 AM endurance, risk and love

Sunday, May 15, 2005

Wella: GV, you buy some beer outside, I wanna drink.

GV: Ok, where's the money?

Wella: Here, GO!
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Alright, one bottle of beer ain't enough for me. I just love drinking beer and puffing nicotine as well. I'm smoking since I was 3! Ahahha. Back then, when I was still a little kid, my family used to go out and have fun in our owned "bundok" in Mindanao, it's a land given by my granny to my papa. We hang out in there a lot.

I could still remember the cold breeze, the fresh mountain air, the smell of mud and all :) I have good memories of my childhood. I used to plant tomatoes and yes, I love planting, from orchids, to vegetables, trees...anything. I love feeding my mom's pet pigs hahaha! I used to own a black puppy named Wel`J, unfortunately, my parents have to throw him away after he bite me on my foot. That hurts T_T

Often, my parents would like to go to our "bundok" with our chefs, Manong Takyo and Manong Pinoy. Both of them are lasenggos. They would bring packs of cigars with them, sometimes, I love to puff nicotine with them while I wait for my papa to get down from the mountains.

It's one good memory I wouldn't forget. Manong takyo and Pinoy are getting old. Pero they still cook for us during special occassions, though there are a lot of changes, hindi na gaanng masarap ung mga pagkain na niluluto nila. :)

OK...I missed everything back home, and this Friday, I'll be leaving Cebu. I will miss my friends online, Onslaught and all the webpages I am working on. Guess I'll be back to my old self, no cgiars, no beer, no computers, no Ragnarok... oh, boring!

Our house is HELL T_T So here I am drinking as I reminisce the good ol' days. :)

4:41 PM endurance, risk and love

Thursday, May 12, 2005

I am the type of person who seldom smile, but today, I mean tonight ngisi ako nang ngisi hahhaha :)

As usual, I spent the whole day in front of the PC, hindi pa ako natutulog, as I've said I'm a vampire, awake at night, dead by day. After waking up at 3AM yesterday, I continued working on some fixes that I have to do for my websites. By 6AM, hindi pa rin ako tapos haha!

Every morning, I would always ask our helper to buy some pandesal for me at Julie's just a stone-throw away from where we are living. Uminom ako ng kape, dalawang baso, masyado na talaga akong addict sa caffeine at sa nicotine. Good Lord hindi sana ako magkakasakit. I can't live without nicotine!

Err...nakalimutan ko na ata when was the last time ako natulog, I'm not sure if it was yesterday...Anyway, I'll just have to contunue with my story. I have lotsa things to say :)

Ok continue...

I scanned my writings here kaninang umaga and tawa ako nang tawa, I didn't noticed all the grammatical errors hahaha! Nakakahiya talaga hehe! Pero now, I would like to promise na i-correct ung mga mali, kahit yung mga wrong spelling lang... Well, hindi ako masyadong magaling magsulat but at least I am trying.

Hmm.. ano pa ba ginawa ko today? Hmm...I checked my mails, I checked all the forums where I am regular visitor, I read on script tutorials, and oh, I installed a new feature on our site this afternoon. I named it Empire Music because it features nothing but music.

I was like busy looking for some Rivermaya's infos, and I was having difficulties looking for Bamboo's infos. I got to bump on a picture of Ira Cruz, gosh ang gwapo... I read something on the caption, and it said that Ira won an award recently, best bassist ba un from the band Bamboo? Sabi naman ni Bam sakin, it's not Ira but Nathan...Oh whatever! I am not so particular with band members, I just love listening to their music...it's hip, it's cool, as long as it suits and it pleases my ears, in sakin. :)

I also added Mayonnaise, and some Cebu local bands who made it there in Manila like Urban Dub, sila pa lang so far. Pero I have this love for Shiela and the Insects, I love their songs, and I love Ian Zafra, the band's guitarist. I wonder when they would be able to conquer Manila by storm. They deserve it for they've been around the local music scene for quiet a long time now. They've done a lot of stuffs already. I first saw them as an opening act for Eraserhead's concert here in Cebu 3 years ago. The performance is worth every depreciating peso!

I remember, last night I got to talk to Hiiro and I told him with all honesty what I felt about how the RPC finals turned out. I am at ease now that at least they know that the match was quiet unfair. I myself am not happy with how things turned out in all server matches. Everything is all about alliances and not real strength. I wonder if Level Up! Games and all their GMs were able to decipher what worst possibilities their plans would bring before they came up with all these stuffs.

Pif my entry title is 10 Reasons to Smile and here I am again talking about unsigthly facts of life... Oh well, the world is round and anything can happen in just a blink of an eye.

Uhm...what else? About 2 and a half hour ago, my sister arrived. She's real noisy, like she owns the whole of Talamban, Cebu City haha! She's like shouting from outside the house that finally she was able to finish her 160 hour-internship at Rose Pharmacy. I admire her fortitude, I wish I am more like my sister. Unfortunately for me, I am a lazy student who would just love sitting around in front of the computer. I am more of a programmer than a pharmacist. I am happy for her. We were joking around in my room while our helper was giving me a massage. It's been a regular routine for me. After taking a bath, I would ask Genevieve to rub lotion on the unreachable portions of my sexy body hahaha :0 Wah!

My sister...she got this classmate and a close friend Giovanni, sometimes I would tease her for they're like lovers. They care for each other haha! She kept on lauging because the head pharmacist of the department signed her DTR instantly so she saved 3 long hours. She planned on getting Giovanni jealous of her success because she was sure Giov's not finished with his internship at the mall yet. Afterwards we learned that Giovanni finished his duties the day before! My sister got real disappointed. :)

I talked to Lyn of Aesir afterwards. I asked her how to get my site discovered by search engines easily. We ended up talking about Eros hahahah! I wouldn't speak about what we talked in here hahaha....

While I was trying to search for the keywords "onslaught, guild, loki, ragnarok" using search engines, I got to bump on Yeng's Blog. I like her writings :) They're cool. But I noticed something...you could always read the name "Pau" on every entry. Hehehe!

Hmmm...what else? Oh yeah...I got to buy a new lighter! Genevieve was out so I bought it myself. I tried to place some alcohol on my old disposable lighter, ubos na talaga, ayaw magsindi!
For three days ginagawa ko to, and sumisindi naman...What a brilliant idea, I thought. Never noticed some spills on the sides so when I tried lighting it up again it almost burned my hands! Luckily, I was able to throw it away, OMFG, I almost got burned!

This is nicotine and gas addiction baby! Hahaha!

As long as there is a glass of alcohol, cold water and a pack of nicotine, life is so much fun!

Haha!

10:09 PM endurance, risk and love

Sunday, May 08, 2005

Onslaught we have earned our glory back...

For 1 year, we've sacrifice. We were defeated by UH last year, but now be proud Onslaught, we are too are champions... We me on a crossroad with UH once again, a rematch of last yr. and we won. Thanks to Death for giving us the chance.

Death couldn't have done it without us vice versa. We took agits and we conquer the houses of the best guilds of Loki just for Death, the whole period of the eliminations.
I couldn't imagine that we are capable of doing such sacrifice in honor for the friendship and alliance with Death.

Onslaught, never get bitter, we ruled, we overthrown our enemies, we've earned the glory that was once ours. This is the day of the reckoning, when the legends will rise and bring forth Onslaught...the dominion of those who cursed will fall.
Revenge is sweet.

This is for our family, for our allies, friends, supporters, for the whole Lokinian community.
We expected no pay, for we valued friendship more than money. This is reality Onslaught, sacrifice is not about winning, it's about giving.

To Death, hoping that you may never forget, that without Onslaught, you won't reach that far.
I talked to a knight once...

Me: Sir, bring your armies into battle...
Sir: Yes, we will see...
Me: An army should learn to fight in order to be strong, you've been sleeping the whole time, it's time for you to shine...
Sir: On the last 3 sieges, we will give a surprise...

And this is it...
Onslaught this is our fate, we will always be known as the guild who would never hesitate to lend a helping hand.
Onslaught: The Meaning of Sacrifice
Onslaught: The Legends of Loki
Onslaught: The Heart of the Real Champs

P.S. Have you smiled today?
Onslaught, I love you from the bottom of my heart.

5:43 AM endurance, risk and love

Thursday, May 05, 2005

I've been busy doing a lot of things lately. I would say I gained a lot of knowledge about scriptings and codes. I never slept for 2 days just to put up a new site again. Though I was real tired killing myself with codes and all this really confusing settings, it's worth it.

I was like doing a "trial and error" thing installing a script, and if I find some errors, I uninstall it again, do something and so on...

Two days ago, I was with my guild on our last day of our battle. Mac wasn't around so it was Rich who took over to do the commands. I didn't really know what to do the whole period, they were just silent. `Twas a real critical situation for us and for our ally Death, but we managed to keep Death at the 2nd spot of the standings.

After the siege, we took printscreens while Pau and some others bid their goodbyes. It was a real sad day. When I stroll around Prontera, people were placing pubs like, "We love you Onslaught", "Goodbye Onslaught"... some made remarks like, "Onslaught is the only guild who have the guts to challenge Unholy."

It was one hell of a journey...I would never forget that once in my life I met wonderful people in-game... in a land we call as Midgard, and a family we know as Onslaught. Some would say that it is an evil empire, but for me, I would say, it is the greatest guild ever. No guild could ever, I mean ever surpass Onslaught's experience when it comes to battle, for me, we are one of the best in Loki server.

Many would say that we are weak but how I wish they know how hard our enemies fought against us just to bring the guild down. We never fought back, we remained silent until the last days. We know and was aware that, they won't let us get into the finals, and they succeeded... but it was our own decision to give up the fight and proceed with another plan even it caused a damage to the guild's pride and honor. I would just hope, that when our men will be fighting at the arena, that they may remember the right virtues of a real warrior.... It is the HEART that made Onslaught what it is today... be brave Onslaught....

5:40 AM endurance, risk and love