Jane: endurance, risk and love

Wednesday, June 15, 2005

Life is full of shit, thus writing a journal about my life wouldn't be limited only for my happy memories. My life ain't happy at all. It's boring, it's sad, filled with chaos...

For almost six years, I sacrificed going to school even if I didn't like my field. I enrolled without my parents with me. I was wandering alone. The first two years, I was having difficulties with regards to my adjustment to the new environment, in dealing with people, especially my classmates at school, my teachers...I had a hard time with my subjects but passed all of them with flying colors. Life those times was difficult, but colorful and happy after I met people like Andoy, Jason, Jhyx, Kim, Kulas and all others who became a part of our clan - a Counter-Strike gaming clan. I was having difficult times waking up in the morning, for we spent our time playing CS at night, afterwards, we go bar-hoppin`, stay up so late, get so drunk, watch porn movies, talk about anythin`, or just plain "kulitan". Despite all of the hardships, I was able to manage my time well.

The day came when Jason's mom found out that he dropped out from school. Yes, I admit that we became so abusive those times, like we sacrificed school just for gaming and for our friends, like being with each other was far more important. Jason escaped from the territories of his Tita and live with our barkada. He never even told all of us of what had happened. He just disappeared, without leaving a word.

Most of my barkada were graduating ECE student those times, but they were able to graduate and even passed the board exam even if we go out wandering during wee hours. Graduation day came...they left. Not so many of us remained.

One by one, they disappeared. I was left all alone.

During my debut, they were all here in this house which I call as my "hawla". This day, I just turned 22. Four years had passed... Those were the memories that will be treasured forever.

Pag birthday ko, we usually go out, inuman, kulitan. Pero after my real barkada left, wala na... My birthday is so boring. I never even have a centavo in my pocket. I am so disappointed with my parents.

As usual, I will be celebrating my birthday, alone and sad. I will spend the night drinking lots and lots of beer.

Happy birthday to me....

Cheers to all the happy memories!

I wish...I wish that I'll be able to graduate then escape from my fantasies, and face the real world.

Hello world! I just turned 22!

6:17 PM endurance, risk and love

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WELLA JANE dual-natured,elusive, complex and contradictory, have the virtue of versatility, on the other the vices of two-facedness and flightiness, very attractive; when feel bad is worse for being the charmer that she is. Lively, and happy, egocentric, imaginative and restless

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MUSIC, rock and metal, animes, black nail polish, nicotine, PC Games, pocketbooks, foods: Chinese, Italian, Pinoy foods, beer, MONEY! Yeah!

I HATE:
Gossips, low-life people, cockroaches, all thing dirty, and everything that YOU hate!

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animes ;

I love watching Anime, so I would like to share to you some anime sites I ~~love~~ to surf. Anyway, this is not complete, but I promise to complete the list soon. Enjoy!

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